I wrote this a while back before I was in a relationship. As you can see, I was a depressed person way back.

By: Sazzad Hossain
To Whom It May Concern:
This is my official leave to the world above
Endless suffering; I’ve had enough
The long mercy mile, had forced out
This ambition to this outstretched emotional doubt
This lonely road I have walked
Hoping that one day it will polite
Forcing myself to this belief
Wishing I had never published
– this melancholic motif

I just think that I don’t fit in
I feel that I have to end this
Pick up that poise and trigger it in
BOOM! That’s it, let’s end this SHIT!

Suicidal concepts flow through my head
Everything that I was told should not be held in
For those who made me experience such pain
I will make them happy by end my pain.
Life is full of unpredictable events.
All arriving one after another
Encumbering this merciless world
Fucking up my future

Fuck this I’ve had enough
The sun has stopped shinning
Showing me my future as a messed up fool

Damn I wish we have never come to this suffering school
I now wouldn’t be so damn messy
Mesmerized by her beauty
Tranquilized by my guilt of love
And carrying out my duty as a friend

I used to be know as Mr. SunShine
Because of my ability of joy
Now that I’ve fallen
I feel like I’m lost in Troy

Days go by
Nights awake
Can’t sleep but think
Why am I this way?
Just like this poem sounds unfinished
So am I

I feel like I can make a change
But my Jealousy guards it inside
For now all I have to take my leave
And stay awake through the night
With only one thing is currently surfing
In my empty mind

What happens when you cannot take such pressure, such pain, such role? What happen if you are forced to make a decision, could you dare make it? Even if it means losing someone you hold dear?

Well that’s just life, and I guess I’m its next victim.