Living within four walls surrounding my bedroom, I can see two twin size beds confined in a small corner of a petite room. Opposite that corner I see a dresser used as a stand for the lamp and the tissue box. To the right you can see a TV standing over an endless amounts of games organized in a, b, c order. Opposite that side you can see a table placed under a flat panel monitor being guarded by two mini-sized speakers. Across from them you can see a young male with low powered glasses typing. Hi! My name is Sazzad Hossain. I am a high school student born a day after the worst flooding to ever take place in my birth country Bangladesh. To many people’s eyes, I am an average student attending a small school located with in the city that never sleeps, New York City. But from my point of view, I’m just a kid trying to be standard teenager.
I do not agree with what others think of me. Who am I exactly from my view? I’m not really sure. All I know is that I am composed of many different types of characteristics. My mind is like a planet filled with many different people. Each person is a part of me and represents me in a certain way. I often choose one of those people to occupy my body, so I can test if it is really me, the person who I am and want to be. But I can never find that person. I search often but never do seem to find that character. So I keep looking and will continue looking until I find the real me.
From my surroundings and the events that take place, my life is like a T.V. show. Although it sounds ridiculous, it seems that every day, every minute, every second of my life is being recorded; and all people around me are “fake.†They all pretend to be someone that they really are not. They are actors and actresses playing a role in the production to create something real. And I happen to be one of those characters playing the role of stooge in the show. Our life is written down on paper like a script is written for a movie. We try to live our life just because we have seen someone being a certain way, or we have heard someone being different.
Ever since childhood, my goal is to be someone different. I want to be someone powerful, someone who can make a difference in the world. I have seen people such as Dr. Martin Luther King, Jr., President John F. Kennedy, Kanye West, etc. who are powerful figures and they became that way by being themselves. I want to be someone who is liked and looked up to because of who I am. I attend school to educate my self, I exercise to strengthen my body, and I go to the Mosque to pray to God so that I become the man of my dreams. I just wish I continue to believe in this so that one day I can achieve this goal.
